Today I went downtown, got out of my truck with my trusty old Canon A1 and a 135mm, a 50mm, and a 24mm. My mission: photograph people.
An odd thing happened, though, when I tried.
I got scared.
These people were strangers, just walking down the street, and I wanted to photograph them. I pulled up the camera, began focusing (it's all manual on the A1...so it takes a little bit longer than autofocus) and they would look at me. Down went the camera. I couldn't do it.
Now, I've shot events before without a problem. I've shot friends and family without a problem. If I'm SUPPOSED to be photographing people I have no issues with it, just point and click away. But for some reason I wasn't able to photograph a stranger on the street today. Something in my head kept stopping me.
What was my problem? I was getting frustrated with myself, because everyone and everything in public is fair game according to the "ethics" of photography. Most street photographers try to avoid shooting people who have no control over their current state, such as homeless people or the mentally ill. I wasn't trying to photograph these people, though. I was trying to photograph ANYONE, and I couldn't.
Finally, I stumbled upon a little rally going on around Monument Circle. Applebee's "Apple Fest", benefiting the Salvation Army. "This is it," I told myself, "now take some damn photos!" So I pointed my camera at some people taking money, focused and "click". Ok, there's one. Alright...not too hard. They didn't even look at me funny.
So I walked around some more.
"Oooh, that's cool." Click!
"That would look nice." Click!
"Interesting!" Click!
"Maybe if I shot this with a different lens it would be even more interesting." Click!
I started seeing things I wouldn't normally shoot and wanting to shoot them. A woman was sitting and eating a sandwich on the steps of the monument with pigeons practically swarming her. I wanted to switch lenses, and by the time I had the lady had gone...pigeons left to fend for themselves. I was too slow. Oh well...next time. I looked over and one of the statues had become a roost for a whole flock of birds, so I snapped a few frames of that instead.
Now, nothing I shot today will win an award. It probably won't even go up here...well, maybe it will, but it wasn't spectacular. It was just me trying to get over a newly discovered fear of shooting photos of strangers. I guess I have a lot of work to do before I'm completely over it!